listen to the laughter

hur hur

manytickles — Sun, 19 Jun 2011 18:06:53 +0000

haha

love hate relationship

manytickles — Fri, 04 Mar 2011 15:57:21 +0000

now i finally know whats the love-hate relationship all about,

its like how you love chocolate coz its so yummy, but also hate it coz it makes you fat,
like how I love cheerleading coz its fun, but hate it coz its scary and injury prone

and like how i hate my boyfriend coz he keeps teasing me, but still love him coz i just love him…

nothing

manytickles — Tue, 11 Jan 2011 20:10:41 +0000

dont know how i’m feeling now, but it doesnt feel good
no more will to fight anymore
no more motivation to succeed
im so sorry, but i dont know why

nothing seems significant now, there’s like nothing to look forward to anymore
damn it

._. BEING VERY NEGATIVE,

fate

manytickles — Sat, 25 Dec 2010 16:56:44 +0000

do you believe in fate?

i do, and i believe that we are fated to be together(:

NEEDS and wants

manytickles — Sun, 05 Dec 2010 15:20:24 +0000

saw this in facebook and i just had to share,

In most cases, especially in relationships, you will only get 80% of what you NEED and you will hardly get the other 20% that you WANT in your relationship. There is always another person (man or women) that you will meet and that will offer you the other 20% which is lacking in your relationship that you WANT. And believe me, 20% looks really good when you are not getting it at all in your current relationship.

But the problem is that you will always be tempted to leave that good 80% that you know you have, thinking that you will get something better with the other 20% that you WANT. But as reality has proven, in most cases, you will always end up with having the 20% that you WANT and loosing the 80% that you really NEED and that you already had.

Today

manytickles — Sat, 04 Dec 2010 17:50:20 +0000

and before i knew it, it was 26 august 2010, we were at the airport at 7am in the morning, i didn’t know what to expect, i don’t know what will happen, I dont know how i will feel, it just came too fast. I thought I would be strong and not cry when you enter the gate, but i was wrong. Becuase i know that once you enter the gate, I would be left alone for the next 4 months plus, with no one to go on spontaneous dates with, no one to whine to, to ask for advice, to do silly things with me, to console me, to disturb me and to accompany me. And you being in a foreign land for 4 months, worries me a lot, what if you fall sick, what if… You are right, I have many friends around me, but they will not be there as much as how much time you are willing to spend with me.

I went home that day feeling so empty, but going back to camp made me feel better, made me forget that you will be away from me for the whole of next 4 months, to be frank, i was just living in self denial. Everything was so rushed and the semester started, the fact that you will not be by my side for the next 4 months have yet to sink in. I lived the same old life as the semester before, just without your presence (although you were present in my whatsapp). You went on to another country, another life, with a total new environment and a new set of friends. Whatever we used to do together last time, i have to do it alone or with friends now.

When i didnt have anyone to have meal with last time, you were always there, now i either eat with my friends, dabao back or dont eat at all. Whenever i have a problem or was feeling sad, i would head to 38 level 3 and get a hug from you, now i would just rant to my friends and to you through whatsapp and then deal with it myself. When i have a huge decision to make (and you know being the indecisive me), i would go to 38 level 3 to get advice from you and listen to what you have to say, now i have made the biggest decision myself by drawing up a pros and cons table, i decided Ernst & Young. And this year, I had the scariest and worst fall of my cheerleading life, and I had to deal with it myself. I rant to you, hoping to feel better, but you forgot about it the next day. That was the only time i expect, and i was disappointed, so i learn not to expect anymore. I look forward to your whatsapp messages everyday, just a good morning and goodnight everyday will simply brighten up my day. To be frank, i dont really like to skype because i fear bad skype sessions.

Now is the studying period and I was ok, with no fixed studying buddy, until today, im falling sick (always will fall sick just before exams). Wish so much that yr here, im a sucker when it comes to falling sick, i become a needy and emo girl): i miss you so much but its so hard to express the “so much” in whatsapp, and you are already asleep.

In 1 month time, you’ll be back, beside me again, i’m happy no doubt, but im kinda used to you not being around me. im used to the freedom, the independence, i’ve somehow forgotten how a hug or a kiss from you feels like, and i’ve forgotten how it feels like to hold your hand. I forgot how warm and nice the feeling is (even though i went over during recess week, but it feels like so long ago).

I miss you baby, and i cant wait to feel your warmth again, soon. Ive become a more independent and decisive girl, but today, I really wished you were here with me.

love,me

Help

manytickles — Fri, 19 Nov 2010 20:44:58 +0000

God, please help me to endure, for just a little while more,
Please

strong

manytickles — Sat, 06 Nov 2010 18:47:10 +0000

i thought i am strong, if not stronger,

what happen again?

emo.

(and then i realised that what doesnt break you, will make you stronger.)

love

manytickles — Tue, 02 Nov 2010 18:22:32 +0000

the more i love,

the more i fear of losing

it’s normal, but its scary.

but, thats not gonna stop me from loving more, definitely

future

manytickles — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 11:37:15 +0000

new month, new goals, new priorities, new opportunities, new discovery,

growing up has never been easy, who said it was easy. to be more independent, to have more self discipline, to get my priorities right, to be decisive, to not miss any precious opportunities and many more.

but i know that as long as i’m happy, my family’s happy, my belly’s happy, my friends are happy, and i know that i’m doing my best, trying my best and i know im slowly improving, bit by bit is enough. But i will not just be contented and stop here, i’m going to improve slowly and one day, i know i will shine.

The future awaits me.

With all the interviews coming in, the thought of graduation and grad trip, everything seems so surreal. TIME FLIES, so cherish every moment that you have while your alive.